February 2012
45 posts
My life in the last 6 months:
I got a promotion, I started doing 2 jobs, I finally got to kiss the Office boy and bring him home to mum and dad, work consumed the Christmas lead up, I spent a few wonderful days with my family, i went to Thailand for NYE and it was the most wonderful time, I came home for two and a half weeks to a pile of work in the new role, I flew to Bali and back in a weekend...
Constantly feeling anxious and constantly in fear of having a panic attack is really testing my limits. I’ve barely slept in nearly a month, and haven’t felt relaxed for weeks. It’s like the feeling of falling in a dream and jolting yourself awake, pumping the adrenaline through you, it’s the nervous tremble in your hands, and the breathlessness of being scared to death -...
I’m so tired, all the time. I could sleep all day and wake up tired, and I’m sick of it. I’m whingy and sad and I know it’s unfair to you, and I’m sorry. I want to pull myself out of this funk and give you the best of me but all I can do is crawl and retreat into the safety of your arms. The anxiety is exhausting, it’s always there and I’m just waiting for...
January 2012
21 posts
Just over 24 hours in Bali and my anxiety has forced me to jump on the next plane out of here
We watched the helicopter scan the cliff, looking for a sign of human life, or the lack there of. And as it hovered at one particular spot I couldn’t help but sympathize with the jumper. I thought ‘that could have been me at my lowest point. That could have been me when I lost all hope’. I almost cried, so I held him a little tighter and looked up to the sky. Every single star...
